Thursday, May 26, 2011

Am I HEARTLESS??

Kalau seseorang bertanya mengapa aku sebegitu kuat dan seperti tak memiliki perasaan? Lalu akan ku jawab, “bukannya aku tak punya hati, tapi hati ini memang sudah sedikit tak berfungsi…”
Kau tahu apa yg membuat orang menjadi besar dan kuat? Pengalaman. Ya pengalaman..
Let me tell you buddy.. Beberapa pengalaman buruk tentang persoalan hati mungkin sudah mengajari dan membuat saya jera untuk tidak banyak menggunakan hati dalam menghidupi hidup. Padahal, yang membedakan manusia satu dengan manusia yang lainnya adalah kualitas hatinya. Ah, memang musti hati2 tentang persoalan ‘hati’.

Aku juga baru sadar, kalau ternyata aku cukup gila dan tak berperasaan. Bagaimana mungkin? harusnya di ulu hati ini ada nyeri, ngilu, atau apalah segala macam bentuk sakit. Ah tapi rasanya hatiku tak berfungsi, mati rasa. Aku baru menyadari kalau otak ku sudah menguasai hati. Aku adalah bentuk manusia yang di kuasai oleh logika. Kepalaku adalah pengontrol dari semua bentuk aktifitas kerja hati. Dimana logika menguasai segalanya, dan tak pernah mempedulikan suara isi hati. Disfungsi hati. Ah, aku seperti bersaudara dengan setan saja. Ah, tapi aku masih manusia kan??

Monday, September 13, 2010

We meet again! Ayeeee...

Hei....!!
Halooo..
Hollaaa...

Bingung gw memulainya darimana. Sudah lama kita gak bercerita hai blog sayang... #Lebay.
Anyway.. setelah membungkam sekian lama gw memutuskan untuk aktif nulis lagi. Yah.. nulis disini, 'bout anything.. Adunno why my heart chosen you blog..!
I've spent too many time to waste, probably! Ah yes of course..

Masih dalam suasana lebaran yang lebay,, jujur sebenernya yg gw tunggu-tunggu dari lebaran ini cuma momen pembersihan dosanya. Feeling gw mengatakan Kiamat Sudah Dekat!! hahhaha.
Nothing was so special tentang lebaran yg tentunya sudah bisa di tebak. Makan-makanlah, sungkem2an lah, bagi2 angpao lah, apalah iyaalaaah gw bosaaan ah. :D
Cuma satu yg nyentrik dan mendadak seperti menikam gw abis2an di euforia lebaran kali ini. Beberapa sodara jauh melemparkan pertanyaan dahsyat yg dahsyatnya melebihi ledakan gas elpiji 3 kg. "Nax, mana pasangannya? kapan mau tunangan? Udah mau lulus kan?"
Oh my Goat, babi celeng serta sodara2nyaaa.. gw gak berpikir sama sekali mereka bakalan bertanya kek gitu ama gw.
Fiance? What does it means? i have never thought about that words, even.
Pacar? gw punya. Sayang ma dia? Tentunya iya.
But.. i never think i will spend my whole life with him as his wife. So far he is just a good boy as i dates him for more than two years. Yet however he is just a good boyfriend, not for being a leader in my household.
Now?
Gw dilema. Gak tau musti ngomong apa. Jalani aja. Ntah nanti gw mau hidup sama siapa..
ato mungkin saatnya gw mulai menjalani sesuatu sejenis Relationshit yg serius.. ah! gw sesak napas memikirkannya.

~tha-tha~
~smooch~

Monday, June 28, 2010

INSTAN = Mudah hilang

Hello bloggers.. i miss u bad.. sorry for being idle not to write any words.. sorry for my bad habit.
Yet i miss to write so bad.. desperately.. so mucchh... *sigh*
My finger is dancing happily, i am in da mood to write..
Oh la la!

ah! yang jelas pagi ini ada yang mengganjal. Hidup ini.. ah lagi-lagi tentang kehidupan yang selalu menyeruak dibenak saya.
Topik pagi ini adalaahh... teng jereteengg...
"secepat itukah rasa sayang muncul??" berawal dari smsan di selingi flirting, telpon pake pulsa gratisan, liat foto-foto keren di FB nya, status yang di update setiap hari. Lalu, kita bilang sayang sama dia cuma dalam kurun waktu gak lebih dari 2 minggu.
Haha.. ngakak saya kalo ada orang yang bilang gitu. Bullshit! ah Bullshit kamuu.. Bullshit = Tai Kebo.
Tau tai kebo? ya seperti kalian itu,, bilang sayang cuma ngeliat dari penampilan fisik, yang belum tentu secantik sifat dan hatinya.
Rasanya gak fair banget dibandingkan perjuangan seorang cowok yang memendam perasaannya sama seorang cewek yang sekelas dengannya selama 2 tahun. Pedekate di jalankan selama 6 bulan, dan si cowok baru menyimpulkan kalo dia sayang sama si cewek setelah perjuangan mengenal selama itu, dan pedekate serumit itu. Nice movie kan!
tapi sayangnya itu bukan movie.. itu kejadian yang sebenar-benarnya terjadi.. REAL!

Terus terang saya gak suka yang serba instan, jatuh cinta pun menurut saya gak boleh Instan! cinta gak se instan itu. Butuh ritual panjang, bukan seperti masak mie instan = Tinggal seduh, masukin bumbu, tiriskan, siap di sajikan.
eh men, perasaan gak kek gitu.. so Jangan cepat terlalu menyimpulkan dan mengatakan sama seseorang "kek nya guw sayang lo deh.." haha. BASIIII...

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Felicity is like a circle


The shadow

The scenery from the top of our villa. @ Batu.


BESIDE BAND


Never had i have such a fun holiday.. what an amazing.
i went to malang with some friends during the weekend with the purpose of watching our favorite underground band live concert. But you know what, we got some beautiful experiences and pictures. anyway it was fun. really fun. awesome. Riding motorcicyle is the best choices than went by public transportation. Stopped in a strange and beautiful place, took some pictures, having snack and then continued our trip. and i do realize that having trip with some friends is more fun than alone. I love it so mux dude..
We stopped at "piket nol" lumajang, east java and after that continued to Malang city and stayed for a night at Batu city.

Monday, February 22, 2010

I'M back with thousand smiles.. :D


Geez.. i think i don't write for a long time in diz blog. Oh my..

many things had happen. Here you go, i'll tell you dat one of my 2010 wish lists is being real. I got new camera. Yup! a cheap pocket camera, but help me full. Ya know what, i also got a new haircut. Uhm.. although it's still messy but i love anyway. Next time i'll have my straight hair soon. I miss da straight hair. *drumroll*
DO you like my pic above? it's da newest pic i took with my new camera.
Eh yaaa......... i took my room picture while messed up. humpt, do not Laugh a load knowing my messy room.
Yihaaa... here you go!!
that is my desk which is made from a bookshelf. LOL



And that's the things on my desk. You may say that i'm addicted to books. Yeah apparently. :P

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

BooYa!

uh! it has been long time no leave any writings in this blog. I think i have no time and idea to write. Now you can say i am in the mood to write.
Well, where am i able to start from?
I just spend the valentine day at Banyuwangi, East Java with some couple of friends. We had a show on a small gig named Metal VS Pop gig. Anyway it was awesome. The gig totally made us sweaty, satisfied and amused. It was the most craziest gig i ever had.

uhm, i'm sick. I'm sick to write a thing.
well gud bye..

c ya with some photos on next posting.

XOXO

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Quotation of the day



"The camera doesn't make a bit of difference. All of them can record what you are seeing. But, you have to SEE."

Ernst Haas